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Thing and Nothing

June 29, 2011

I once read that my heart is soil, and that a seed, if planted, may grow there. And I read that if the seed grows, I will know it is good. I will know it is good because it will swell and sprout and begin to grow.

I thought of the seeds that have been sown in anger and the seeds that have been sown in envy—Cain’s planting which was unaccepted by the Lord—and the frenzied seeds of hatred and fear and selfish lust. I thought about the growth of evil seeds in the soil of the ignorant and impoverished heart. I thought about the lurid harvest moon hovering over centuries of chaos.

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The darkness we have become blind to and the cold we have become numb to—these are nothing—no thing. In the beginning there was the matter, and there was the nothing, and the nothing was nothing but the lack of the matter so that in the beginning there was nothing but matter.

I thought about the bitter apples we have eaten because humans would not sit forever at the threshold of a closed but unlocked door. And the seeds that grew into the trees which bore those bitter apples—those were good seeds, because they grew. The darkness and the cold are nothing. But my heart is something, because it is bitter, and because it is my heart.

Thing and Nothing

© Trent R. Leinenbach, Ashen Apples, 2011

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2 Comments leave one →
  1. Debbie permalink
    June 29, 2011 7:58 pm

    I am really enjoying your writing Trent! You are a wordsmith!! Thanks for sharing. You need to share these with your mom! I told her I loved them and she said you weren’t sharing! SHARE!!!

    • June 29, 2011 8:14 pm

      haha thanks Debbie you’re the best! Don’t worry, I am sharing with my mom–she reads every post! 🙂

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